Saturday, January 12, 2013

A hefty price tag!



Mayong is situated in Marigaon district of Assam, on the banks of Bramhaputra, 40 kilometers North East from Guwahati. Now evolving as a tourism hot-spot and archaeology pilgrimage, it once was the Land of Black Magic. Or as they say, for some people, it still is.

It was a cloudy night of September 2000. Monsoon was splashing into already waterlogged and empty streets of Calcutta, but brothels of Sonagachi were flowing with buzzing crowd. Sonagachi, one of the largest red-light districts in Asia, was reportedly employing roughly 11,000 sex workers. On one of the dimly lit nooks of Shobha Bazar, a man was standing restlessly near an awkwardly parked van. Regulars to places like these would have easily figured from his body language that he did not belong there. He didn't. He might be a rookie in the business, but the stuff he got was top notch. He just made a last call from his phone and was anxiously waiting for the other party. A woman was stepping down from the nearest multi-story building, accompanied by three huge men. Mashi, that was how you address a brothel owner in Bengal. "Nomoshkar Mashi, kemon acchish?", he asked glibly. "Bhalo." replied Mashi dryly. "Brothel owners are not very good at reciprocating greetings, are they?" he thought. One huge man passed a suitcase to him. He opened it, counted the money, nodded in agreement, and opened the door of van. Three huge men lifted a half asleep, extremely young girl from van and took her to the building. "You seem to have quite an eye. What a sweet little thing you have got there. Keep working with Mashi and you will see yourself going places." Mashi said. "I will. Bhalo thakben!" he said with much better confidence, smiled and left.

Bishnuram Sarma was new in Mayong. In past, under Bishnu's leadership as General Duty Officer, the coastal guards had run series of operations to successfully bring down smuggling on Indian shores. He was born in Assam but years of service all across India had made him a stranger in his own land. Recently, his wife Indira and 10 year old son Hiren arrived from Chennai. "It's been two weeks since I arrived and you couldn't even get us a maid? Do you want me to give advertisement in newspaper?" Indira was tired and frustrated. "Chennai was much better. Told you, we should have bribed officials and got you transferred somewhere else. Did you see Hiren's school? It stinks like a toilet. Never thought he had to study in a place like this." She was losing control. "I tried a lot, you could get a goddamn Malana Cream here, but maids? No way. For some stupid reasons, nobody wants to keep maids or any servants for that matter. Fucking idiots!"  Bishnu replied angrily. "Everyone thinks everyone else is a voodoo magician. Ignorant bastards. Can't even spell a word, but ask them to put a spell on someone, and they will do it in a minute!" This maid search did not last any longer however. After one week of desperation, Bishnu somehow managed to find Joyantee. Quite and quick, Joyantee was just the kind of maid every housewife would want to have. Eighteen, full of youth and blossom, just the kind of woman men like Bishnu would want to use. Bishnu's trained eyes didn't take much time to spot Joyantee's fascination towards Bollywood. On one day, when nobody was around in the house, Bishnu made his first move.

"Ever seen Bombay?" he asked Joyantee. "Only in movies. I always see myself as a movie star in dreams. But dreams are dreams Babu, there is no place for girls like me in Bombay." replied Joyantee. "Poor child! Let me talk to your mother about this new drama school in Bombay. Here. Take this money and buy some new clothes and books on acting." Bishnu passed few hundred rupees to her. "Everyone has a right to dream and with a proper training, anyone can become a star. Do you know Rekha was a village girl once in her life? And look where she is now. I see you have great potential to enter into Bollywood. With a little bit of help from me and from your family, you could start a new life there. All you have to do now is convince your mother. Destiny has given you a chance, don't waste it!" A ray of hope, you don't have to be an expert to see that in somebody's eyes. "I won't Babu. God bless you! I work at some other houses too and I don't get the same respect from men there. All I see in their eyes in hunger, Babu.  I guess respecting women is what they teach at other places." Delighted with the thought of new world, Joyantee left for the day. Bishnu knew that the fish has lured into a trap, what he didn't know was he wasn't the only one aware of it. As luck would have it, Indira had overheard their conversation. Let's just say, this wasn't the first time she had seen the real side of Bishnu. Not that she did not know of his motives, she simply did not have guts to speak about it. "God knows when is he going to stop doing this. Nothing good happens to people like him. I just hope his behavior wouldn't be the reason for our debacle one day!" she said to herself. 

One week after this incident, Joyantee started skipping her work. When asked, she gave lame excuses. Apparently she was asking too many questions about the drama school and its authenticity. Bishnu could not give her satisfactory answers, and would often start a minor quarrel on any random topic.  Soon curious arguments started turning into heated exchanges and one day reached the level of abuse. One day Joyantee said furiously, "I know what you are doing Babu. Do you think I am stupid enough to let you take advantage of me and send me to a place where god knows what's going to happen! There is a word for people like you, it's called dalaal!", Bishnu went berserk and almost attacked her. "I offered you a seat in that school and this is how you pay back, you filthy bitch! You don't know who are you dealing with. I am not finished yet! One day you will repent those words of yours. Get the hell out of my house. I will cut you into pieces and feed them to dogs if I see you here again!" he fired her on that day. Many weeks passed after that and just when Indira thought Bishnu forgot everything, news broke that Joyantee has been kidnapped and the police were on the lookout. Before they could even start a proper investigation, Joyantee's tortured body was found dumped near a crematorium with some incense sticks, flowers and blood. Witch hunting was not new in Mayong. Many similar incidents were reported earlier. Indira was puzzled as to why Bishnu - an educated man - would do this. Bishnu on the other hand was furious because of the stupidity of Mayong people. Joyantee's death just costed him a fortune. Only a seasoned human trafficker would know the price of eighteen year old Assamese girl. "Only if villagers here had a small thing called brain in their heads, this wouldn't have happened. I could have forcefully sent her to Bombay, but now dumbasses screwed this up." He had to start from all over again now, it was always hard to find young girls as gullible as Joyantee. But just like in any other profession, patience was the key here. The next most important task for him was to find a new maid, which surprisingly did not take as much time as he had anticipated.

Puspalata was weird. As a maid and as a general personality. Good that Indira didn't ask Bishnu's opinion before hiring her as he would have definitely rejected Puspalata. Short, old, awkward and always disorganized was how he would have described their new maid. Contrary to what most maids would do, Puspalata chose her own employer, she came by asking for work at Sarma's house. She was much cheaper than Joyantee, albeit not as good, but worth the money. Plus being less attractive was a best bet considering Bishnu's recent adventures. One thing that Indira didn't really like about Puspalata was her abnormal behavior. At times she spoke of her husband as a strongest man and other time she would curse him throughout the day, calling him eunuch. That day Indira was cutting vegetables and Puspa was making rotis and suddenly Indira cut herself. "Ouch! this hurts a lot. Very deep cut!" Indira was about to run some tap water to cleanse the wound, when Puspa pulled Indira towards her and put injured finger in her mouth. When Puspa cleaned that wound with her tongue she let her go and said, "Blood is life, madam. Don't waste it like that. People kill each other for lands these days, one day they will kill each other for blood. Blood is life ma'am, blood is life!"  There was something terrifying about what she did. For a moment Puspa looked like a bloodhound, quenching her thirst. She was weird earlier, devilish now. Indira stepped aside without saying anything and went to dress her wound. She thought about it later on but then neglected as yet another weird gimmicks Puspa played. For a time being, Indira was just happy that she didn't have to go through the pain of finding a maid all over again. Hiren's birthday was coming and Puspalata was going to be of great help in serving guests. "Hiren, what a sweet kid he is!" thought Indira. Hiren was born 10 years after her marriage. Only she and Bishnu knew how many doctors , babas and sadhus did they see and how many gods they worshiped for their first child. In their visit few years back, her gynecologist referred them to a male infertility specialist. Turned out that there was no chance of them being parents again.

"I want you to know Hiru, that you are the best thing happened to mom and me. We love you, son. And we will always be there for you. Promise that you will never leave us alone." Bishnu was drunk. No doubt he was creating a scene at the birthday party, but there was a reason behind it. Indira vividly remembered the day when Hiren was admitted to the hospital for kidney infection. The dialysis worked for a while as a temporary solution. His kidneys were too fragile to survive and transplant was the only option. Kidney transplanted from an adult donor into a child has greater chance of success, and so, Bishnu stepped up. Any father in the world would have done that for his son. From that day onward, Bishnu saw his own rebirth in Hiren. Simply put, he meant the world to Bishnu. Unfortunately, Bishnu wasn't the only one acting strange on that day. Puspalata was equally excited about Hiren turning eleven. When no one was seeing, she hugged and kissed him multiple times. When Sarmas were busy talking to guests, she took Hiren out in the gallery. The galley was facing West and the waxing gibbous moon was appearing much bigger than its normal size.  It was cold and quiet, you could hear the sound of wind passing. "Two more days Hiren and I am going to give myself the best gift ever." she said happily. "Which gift Puspa aunty? Can I get that too?" asked Hiren innocently. "A chocolate dear, I will bring you a chocolate from the city. Different kind of chocolate. For now, accept this gift from me." She applied vibhuti (ash powder) on his forehead and said, "This is a sacred ash. It will keep you away from all kinds of black magic." "What is black magic, Puspa aunty?" asked Hiren. "Don't be so impatient kid, the day is not far when you will find that out yourself!" Puspalata replied in a bitter tone. A sense of achievement passed through her sadistic face. Two nights after that, on full moon, she went to Guwahati's Kamakhya temple and offered a young pigeon as sacrifice. And yes, as promised she brought a hand made chocolate for little Hiru.

"My driver is on leave for his daughter's wedding, and he won't be back for a month. I need someone who can drive. Do you happen to know anyone, Puspa?" Bishnu asked. "Gajen. Gajen Kumar. He stays next to our house. He used to work as a jeep driver earlier. But then jeep owner had a fight with RTO officer here and the officer closed his business. My husband knows Gajen." Gajen's name came out in a jiffy as if he was always on Puspa's mind. "Sure. Let me meet this Gajen of yours." Bishnu left. Gajen happened to be a tall, young man, roughly around 30 years old, with looks that would make women drool over. No wonder women wanted to be near him all the time. He talked of Puspa with great affinity, the kind which you don't have for your neighbors. Bishnu asked Gajen to join work from the next day. Some days passed and suddenly Puspa started skipping. It had been around 4 days since Puspa showed up at work. Indira sensed something terrible and thought of paying a visit to Puspa's. She had to ask around for directions to Puspa's house. After going through countless winding muddy and dirty trails, she finally reached near a house somewhere in the slums of Mayong. Women were washing their utensils in front of the house and kids were playing in that water.  None of the kids were left alone, it seemed like parents kept a keen eye on their kids as they were playing. Puspa's door was unlocked. Indira went in. It was a dingy place and nobody seemed to be home. She went further inside and just when she thought of calling Puspa out, she saw her and Gajen in bed together. Puspa was moaning in ecstasy as Gajen was pleasuring her. Indira for once thought of leaving, but the lust took over morality. "Gosh! Look at him, who would not want to have a man like that!" She almost said that out loud. Gajen looked at her, Puspa didn't seem to notice her arrival though. There was an animal like passion in his eyes. Gajen continued, as he was gazing deep in Indira's eyes. For years, nobody looked at her like that. It was as if Indira was feeling him, inside her. It was embarrassing but at the same time it felt right because the distance between Indira and Bishnu had increased so much over the years that they did not find each other attractive anymore. Somewhere out there, Indira was looking for a man who would make her feel like woman again, and she wanted that man to be Gajen. "Is lust ever worth breaking up marriage? No, never. For god's sake, I am a wife and a mother." Breaking relation with Bishnu is probably the last thing she wanted, at the same time she was aware that keeping hands off of Gajen wasn't easy either. She left Puspa's house in hurry. On the way back home, she started thinking about Gajen. When their eyes met, it was as if Gajen knew every single thought that was running through her mind. Nobody could read women better than him. Indira wanted to stay away from Gajen, but harder she tried, closer she went. She came to know from Puspa about his family and that he didn't get a chance to study further because of family commitments. His sister and mother had lot of respect for the man who took care of them after his father's demise. He might not be the richest guy but he had all traits of a man woman would go crazy after. "If had I been ten years younger, I probably would have asked him out!", thought Indira. Love for companion was not the only thing lacking from her insipid relationship with Bishnu. She had absolutely zero respect for Bishnu because of the heinous crimes he was committing over the years. Had it not been about Hiren's future, she would have left him long time back. At Puspa's house, Gajen was lying sideways, thinking about what just happened. He was quite sure that he had struck a chord with Indira.

Things were not going smoothly after Hiren's birthday. Once on the crossroad, he mistakenly crossed a well lit earthen lamp with lemon, chillies and vermilion. Few days later, he found some of his clothes missing. Once when he was asleep, he could feel somebody cutting his hairs and then nails. Nothing significant happened after that except he started waking up in night with a jerk and fear. He happened to eat a chocolate that Puspa once gave him which tasted more like ash. After some days, his complexion started turning gray and then dark. Most of the times he never shared these things with anyone. At times when he did, both Bishnu and Indira ignored him, calling him stupid and blaming TV serials for his fantasies.  It went on until one day when he fell sick with high fever. He was admitted to the hospital and doctor treated him for typhoid. After a week or so things became normal and he was discharged. Even if Hiren was feeling much better, in the back of his mind he always thought that something bad is going to happen. Indira had hard time convincing him that he was safe at home. A month passed quickly and he started going back to school. Just when everything was going fine, on the evening of seventh day of the month, Hiren left school for home. He was about to cross the street when someone smothered him by a napkin with a strong smell. It was the beginning of a dark and endless night, one that Sarma family should have never seen in their life.

Hiren woke up with a terrible headache and blurry vision. He found himself in a place which was not at all like home. He was sitting in a chair, probably in a dark and cold cottage, at a remote place outside of village. A bearded, half naked Shakta (priest) was sitting across him. Behind Shakta was the great statue of Mother Godess Durga. Shakta was chanting continuously and was offering aahuti in the agnee-kunda. Hiren was extremely frightened. He had heard about these rituals from friends but never imagined that one day he will be the part of it. "The sacrifice will be made at midnight, on the day of Ashtami, the eighth day of 10-days autumnal Durga Puja. This human to be sacrificed is sent by God. If anyone tries to see this act of sacrifice, evil will be bestowed upon him by the Mother. Offerings like these are the only way to appease Durga Mata. You should wait until midnight and offer your prayers to the goddess. It is after 15 days, you shall conceive a child!" Hiren looked around and was shocked to see Puspa who did not have the guts to look Hiren in the eye. She was standing quiet, chanting Durga Mata's names. Puspa had been keeping a watch on families with 10 year old kids. She was told that if she offers a Narbali of a 10 year old to Mata, in return Mata would bestow her blessings and she would conceive a boy. Everyone in Mayong knew about people like her and that was the reason nobody wanted to bring a maid or unknown person in their houses. What could she do? How many more years should see suffer the pain of seeing other kids, and not having someone of her own? Why is she the only one depraved of the magic of giving birth? She waited patiently until the midnight. Hiren was made to wear a garland of red flowers and his forehead was colored with a mixture of kumkum, haldi and ash of a dead person. To keep things quiet and less painful maybe, he was sedated. "This is the same sword my forefather used for years. It has the magical power of Mata and had never disappointed a true devout. May the light of her blessings shine upon you, Puspalata." said the Shakta. A huge sword came out, cutting through the human flesh. Bitter feeling of cold and eerie silence of death settled over the cottage.

Hiren's sudden disappearance caused havoc in the village. Bishnu and Indira lodged a police complaint. Quick phone calls were made. Bishnu, his neighbors and friends started searching for any traces at school, playground and all possible places Hiren might have visited. Nothing helped. "You should see a tantrik. He would know the whereabouts of Hiren." said one of the neighbors. Indira and Bishnu wanted to try every single option. It did not matter if seeing a tantrik was superstitious or not. It did not take much time for them to find the house of Bej Tilak. Tilak conformed the stereotypical image of a tantrik. Long tangled hair, saffron robe and bloodshot eyes. Bishnu showed him a photo of Hiren. He moved his jhaad phoonk apparatus over the photo and closed his eyes. After chanting spells of kaal diksha, udaan, paas, mohini and haranluki which are almost extinct these days, he started speaking. "It's too late now. We have lost him. You should have seen me earlier. 20 kilometers East from the Mayong Central Museum, in the outskirts, you would see a Durga Mandir. Jungle starts from there. If you walk around 1 kilometer inside, you would see a small cottage. Hopefully, we will get Hiren's body there." "You are a moron. How dare you say that about my son!" Bishnu was agitated. They were about to leave when Bishnu's cell phone rang. "We have just found a dead body near the jungle, it could be Hiren. We need you for here the identification." It was the police. Bishnu stood in a stunned silence. When Bishnu and Indira saw that beheaded body, all hell broke loose. They became numb. Such was the loss that they could not even speak to each other. They had lost the best part of themselves and they knew nothing would bring that part back. Indira did not cry, not a single drop. "What did I do to see a day like this?" she mumbled to herself. She recounted years since Bishnu started his dirty game and felt a sudden anguish. "We are being punished because of your atrocities over last 12 years. What is worst than the death of dearest one? Sad part is, we lost a life which hasn't even... " Indira gasped, looked at Bishnu in contempt and walked away. Bishnu did not stop her, for he knew that his son paid a heavy price for his misdeeds. "What is worst than death? Attending the funeral of your own son, who was not even old enough to understand intricacies of life..." he was weeping in agony as he spoke. The police filed a case against Puspa, who was convicted for a murder and was reported missing from Mayong. They also caught hold of the Shakta. A team was set up to investigate the matter, and they were looking for evidences. The law would have taken its own course and justice would be served, except neither Bishnu nor Indira was interested in the outcome. A death had separated them and changed their lives forever.

A figure was attending Hiren's cremation from a very long distance. Today he was sad again, probably even more sad than last time. His heart was heavy with memories and eyes were full of tears. For years, he had been waiting for this moment. Twelve years back he met a girl in the clan of black magic practitioners. They fell in love and decided to get married. Just when they thought of doing away with necromancy, Bishnu kidnapped and sold the only girl he loved, leaving him shattered for rest of his life. Today he took away someone, and in return broke two lives forever. He thought he would be overjoyed at this moment, his life finally had served some purpose. But he was wrong. There was a chasm of emptiness in him. Only self repentance could have filled that void. "I must be proud of myself today, after putting an end to the innocent life. How sweet is the revenge when you don't want it anymore?" he asked to himself and disappeared in the darkness. There was no going back to Sarma's house ever again. Instead he took a bus to Delhi. On the next morning, he enrolled himself as a volunteer to Shakti-Vahini, a Delhi based NGO doing monumental work against human trafficking. On his first day, he made a donation in the memory of Kanchan and took the oath of fighting against trafficking.

Gajen wouldn't have used Puspa as a pawn in this dirty game if Bishnu hadn't sold his love of life in the bazaars of human flesh. He wanted to teach Bishnu a long, hard lesson that life does not come with a price tag. He indeed taught him that, and as a result created two worthless, broken pieces of flesh. All they had to do now was to go through the ordeal of carrying the burden for rest of the life.

Wednesday, December 19, 2012

I try to move on

I open Times of India's website and search for the word 'rape'. Since I live in a very well connected society, I get many hits. In every search the word rape remains same, what changes is the place, time and age of the survivor. While I am writing this post, I see three news - 23 year old girl gang raped and dangerously injured in Delhi, 5 year old girl stolen and raped in Bidar and 25 year old girl raped and set on fire in Siliguri. I close those browser windows, try to imagine what kind of ordeals these girls must have been through, close my eyes in utter shame, sometime shed a tear or two. Thinking "There is a lot of shit out there on Internet", I try to move on.

I walk from my house to the bus stop. There is a huge school ground in front of my house where school kids play during break time. While passing through, I hear a wayward kid playing sleazy Bollywood item number on his expensive phone. He and three of his friends follow a group of four girls. Unable to resist their hormonal power surge, they decide "Teri wali woh, meri wali yeh". I imagine myself being a shy kid in school, thereby forgetting and ignoring everything that is happening around me, I try to move on.

Bus stop is very close, a few stretches away. After a while, I am on the bus. Some gentlemen give their seats to ladies and I see a ray of hope somewhere. "Respect, is still there, my friend" I tell myself. On one stop, I see a bunch of hooligans getting on the bus. After a series of long stares, they pass some nasty but discernible comments about a girl in the crowd.The girl, being wise and experienced, ignores them and tries to find some place so that she can't be seen face to face. Someone from the group moves closer to her, accidentally drops coins on the floor and makes illicit contacts while picking them up. "Why did the conductor allow such people to board the bus?" Unable to answer this question, pretending this as a normal act, I try to move on.

I reach office. The only sane and sophisticated place where I always wanted to spend my day. One of those rare places where I could see educated, well behaved individuals. I work for some time. After a while, I feel like taking a leak, so I go to the restroom. I and my colleagues wait while a girl cleans up the toilet. Totally aware of our per hour wages and importance of time, she tries to wrap things up as soon as possible. But while leaving, she makes a mistake. She drops her detergent bottle on floor and hastily picks it up and leaves. Within a flash of a second I see gentlemen reacting over her cleavage while she was correcting herself. Some whisper "Kya maal hain!" while they are answering the nature's call. "Come on, this is just a lighthearted moment, why make a fuss?" my inner voice tells me. Calculating how much work is left to be finished and how much time is remaining, I try to move on.

I am home after a tiring and frustrating day at work.I turn on the TV and choose some random channel. It runs an advertisement with a disclaimer - Do not attempt this at home. A handsome dude drives his car recklessly. Enamored by his manliness, an extremely beautiful seductress gives him lusty looks. The dude, apparently confounded, has to go through the painful task of choosing between the car and this mystery girl. "This must have doubled their sales!" appreciating the mastermind behind this ad, I surf channels again. There is a discussion going on about violence against women. Interesting, I think to myself. One of the participants is this woman who has been gang raped last year, and yet seeking justice. Two of the perpetrators are still on the loose and nobody seems to be interested in further investigation. In the meanwhile, she looses her job, social life, relatives and all but a very few friends. "Rape is not just a physical trauma, it's mental, social, psychological stigma", says one of the participants in discussion. "Absolutely! look at her, she has two kids to take care of, this is going to be extremely difficult". I say it out loud. Confirming the last conclusion - rape is equally bad as death, I try to move on.

I see myself as a father of this most beautiful and loving daughter. I see my life, full of light and joy, away from all black shadows. She grows up very fast and one day I had to drop her to the school. I suddenly remember everything that happened throughout the day and my dream breaks down. "This must be because of all stupid thoughts around me" I say this and try to move on.

Castration followed by 10 hours of porn followed by capital punishment? I am all for it. Just like all of my knee-jerk reactions, I think this will solve everything. Stricter laws, sweeping reforms on violence against women will be a great start. What about the good old sanskar we had? It's up to us, isn't it?

Oscar Wilde, one of the wisest men, once said "Women are meant to be loved, not to be understood". It is for us to find out - "can there be love without respect?"

That was my dream, and what's yours ?

Amen.








Sunday, March 20, 2011

एक्सिडेंटल डिस्कव्हरी

"(आय) नेल्ड इट !", आपल्या नवीन कम्प्युटर कीबोर्डच्या लाल आय - कि वरून दिमाखात बोट फिरवत रॉय उठला. " सलग १० तासाच्या एक्स्ट्रीम कोडींग सेशनमधून विजयी होऊन बाहेर पडण्याचा आनंद काही औरच. तुम्हा मिडल-क्लास क्लेरिकल कामं करणाऱ्या, ५ - १० हजार रुपड्यासाठी साहेबाची हांजी हांजी करणाऱ्या सरकारी नौकारांना नाही कळणार." आजूबाजूला पडलेल्या कोक , चिप्स, बियर , सिगारेटच्या पाईल मधून अडखळत बाहेर पडताना कामवाल्या बाईने लिहिलेली चिट्ठी त्याला सापडली. "म्या उद्या येनार न्हाय. पोरगी पोटशी हाय. डागदर म्हनला उंद्याची तारिक हाये..." "शिट, चीप वर्कर क्लास साला, कारणच पाहिजे दांड्या मारायला. उगाच नाही ह्यांच्या नशिबी धुणं भांडी येत. डिलीव्हरी डेट अशी लॉटरी मिळाल्यासारखी अचानक येत असते का कधी ?" तिसऱ्या मजल्यावरच्या खिडकीतून खाली बघताना समोरच्या रिक्षावाल्याच पोर त्याला गटारीतून क्रिकेटचा बॉल काढताना दिसलं. आपण काहीतरी घाणेरडा प्रकार करतो आहोत ह्याचा किंचितही विचार न करता ते पोर पुन्हा खेळायलाही लागलं. "कसं होणार याचं ... खर तर रोगराईला हेच कारण आहेत. ह्यांना कितीही पैसे द्या, सुविधा द्या, कधी सुधारणार नाहीत. पोरांना सांभाळायची औकात नाही तर काढायची ... " तेवढ्यात सेलफोन वाजला - अलेक्स कॉलिंग - "डोन्ट वरी अलेक्स, आय टूक केयर ऑफ इट. वुई शुड बी गुड नाउ..." आपल्या आयफोन वरच्या स्क्रीनवर खेळता खेळता रॉय पुटपुटला - "ह्या यु-आय वाल्यांना काही काम नको. इनमिन ३-४ बटण दाखवायची. १० - ५ क्लिक इवेन्ट लिहायचे पण त्यातही मिजास ह्यांची. अरे डेडलाईन कशी असते ते आम्हाला माहित खर तर. काम आम्ही करणार, क्रेडीटसाठी ही लोकं पुढ ..."

एव्हाना दुपारचे २ वाजले होते. आंघोळ करून रॉय खाण्यासाठी म्हणून उडुपी हॉटेलमध्ये गेला. अण्णानी आपलं नेहमीचं गिऱ्हाईक असल्याने "जारे पिंट्या, सायबांना काय पाहेल ते बग" असा हुकुम सोडला. "सॉफ्टवेयर इंजिनियर, आणि तो पण एका एम-एन-सी मध्ये म्हणजे काही साधी गोष्ट नव्हे. समोरच्या कुलकर्ण्यांचा मंदार मेक्यानिकल इंजिनियर असूनही आज १५ हजार महिन्यावर काम करतोय. ते सुद्धा फिरतीची नौकरी करून. नशीब आणि खडतर कष्टाचं फळ आहे कॉम्प्युटर इंजिनियर होणं ..." समोरच्या टेबलावर बसलेल्या दोन बायका (सरासरी शिक्षण इयत्ता ११ वी, सरासरी वय ५० वर्षे ) वेळ जावा म्हणून तोंडाच्या वाफा दवडत होत्या "आमचा संजू यंदा बारावी पास झालाय, काही झालं तरीही बाई मी त्याला कॉम्प्युटरलाच घालणार आहे. बाकीच्या फिल्डमध्ये आता काही राम उरला नाहीये." या दोन बायांचा हा संवाद नकळत रॉयच्या मनाला सुखावून गेला. ऑर्डर येईपर्यंत टाईमपास म्हणून शेजारी ठेवलेल्या अंकावर त्याचं लक्ष गेलं - आजच्या अंकाबरोबर पहा विवाहेच्छुक मुलामुलींसाठी रेशीमबंध ही पुरवणी. तुमचा प्रतिसाद कळवा, मुलामुलींचे पत्ते, फोन नंबर मिळवा. मासिक अंक फक्त १०० रु. मध्ये उपलब्ध ! पुरवणीवरच्या सुंदर मुलीच्या चित्राकडे पाहता पाहता त्याने नकळत माहिती वाचायला सुरुवात केली. "ब्राह्मण हवा, पोटजात कुठलीही चालेल, शक्यतो कोकणस्थ असावा, उच्च शिक्षित असावा, कॉम्प्युटर इंजिनियर चालेल, पुण्यात घर असावे, मोठ्या कंपनीत उच्च पदावर नौकरी करणारा असावा, निर्व्यसनी - मनमिळावू - जबाबदार .... " शब्दागणिक रॉयचा स्वताबद्दलचा रिस्पेक्ट आणि इतरांबद्दलचा तिरस्कार वाढतच होता. एक्स्पोनेन्शिअल ग्रोथ सारखा... शेजारच्या टेबलवर बसून बिडी मारणाऱ्या आणि डाव्या हाताने फुर्र फुर्र करत कटिंग पिणाऱ्या माथाडी कामगाराकडे शेवटचा "डीस्गस्टिंग .." लूक देऊन रॉय निघाला.

"बघतो मी आई. ऑफिसमध्ये विचारतो. मला २ दिवसाची सुट्टी काढून जावं लागेल." आईशी फोनवर बोलताना त्याला नाही म्हणायला पटकन काही कारण सुचलं नाही . आजोबांच्या पेन्शनच्या कामाला त्याला तालुक्याच्या ठिकाणी जावं लागणार होतं. बऱ्याच वर्षात रॉयने आजोळी चक्कर मारली नव्हती. कारणच नाही पडलं कधी. आधी अभ्यास आणि आता नौकरी - त्याला कारणांची कधीही कमतरता नव्हती. कर्जत तसं तालुक्यापेक्षा मोठ गाव, पण रॉयला पुणं सोडलं तर बाकी सगळ्यातच काही ना काही उण दिसायचं. बसमधली ती प्रचंड गर्दी, गावठी धोतर - सदरे - फेटे, त्यांचं दुनियाभरच सामान पोत्यात भरलेलं, बसच्या मधल्या भागातच पसारा मांडून बसलेल्या बायका आणि त्यांची रडकी पोरं. सगळं कसं किळस आणणारं. एशियाडने जायचा प्रश्नच नव्हता, ती कर्जतला थांबायला तर पाहिजे ना. जाण्याआधीच परत कधी येऊ असं झालं होतं रॉयला. ५ - ६ तासाच्यात्या छळातून कशीबशी त्याची सुटका झाली. कर्जतला धुळीचा लोट मागे उडवत ती बस एकदाची थांबली. घरचा वाडा विकून आता बरीच वर्षं झाली होती. स्वताच्याच आजोळी परकं वाटायला लागलं होतं. "ते तहसीलदारांच्या ऑफिसला कसं जायचं ?" शेजारीच उभ्या असलेल्या, त्यातला त्यात सभ्य वाटणाऱ्या माणसाला रॉयने विचारलं. "लाम हाय इतुन. तलाठ्याच्या हापिसला जीपड पकडून जावं लागतं. त्या वडाखाली मिळल बगा तुम्हास्नी गाडी." सभ्य माणसाने दोन दातांच्या फटीतून १२० - ३०० ची पिचकारी मारत सूचक उत्तर दिलं. रॉय जीपजवळ जाऊन थांबला. "तलाठी हापिस, तलाठी हापिस, १ शीट, १ शीट " एका सीटसाठी जीव काढणाऱ्या त्या ड्रायव्हरची तो वाट पाहायला लागला.

"अय पोरा, अय अय ... सूद आली का नाय अजून ? हिकडं बघ ..." एक अनोळखी माणूस एका हातात फोडलेला कांदा आणि दुसऱ्या हातात पाण्याचा तांब्या पकडून रॉयला उठवत होता. "तुज्या जीपला आक्षीडन झालाय. बाप्पाची किरपा म्हणून तू तेवडा जिता राईला." रॉयला शॉकमधून सावरुही न देता त्या माणसाने सगळे डीटेल्स सांगितले. "आर म्या म्हनतो हिकडं डोंगरावरच्या देवीला साडी नेशिव. येक वन बी न्हाई तुज्या आंगावर. चमत्कारच म्हनायचा." आयुष्याची ही असली भयाण क्षणभंगुरता अनुभवायची रॉयची ही पहिलीच वेळ होती. नम्ब होण काय असतं हे त्याला आता कळत होत. जे काय झालं ते सगळं विसरून जावसं वाटत होत त्याला. समोरच दारूचा गुत्ता दिसला, क्षणाचाही विचार न करता तो आत गेला. "कौन कम्बक्थ बरदाश्त करने के लिए पिता हैं, हम तो पीते हैं सब कुछ भुलाने के लिए ..." आतल्या गड्याला एक "चपटी" ची ऑर्डर देऊन सगळ्यात अंधाऱ्या कोपऱ्यात जाऊन रॉय बसला. एरव्ही चकचकीत टेबलवरती बसणाऱ्या माशिचाही राग राग करणारा रॉय आज देशी दारूच्या गुत्त्यात, कडवट विषारी वासात, अट्टल दारूड्यांमध्ये बसला होता. "काय दोस्ता, पैलीच पारी वाटत..." अतिशय घाणेरड्या वासापाठोपाठ एक मद्यधुंद पण गंभीर आवाज आला.एक ३५ - ४० वर्षाचा माणूस त्याला हसत विचारत होता, जणू काही त्याला हे असं जगण माहीतच होतं - नेहमीचंच झालं होत.

"पहिली म्हणजे ? तुमच्यासारखं रोज इकड पडलेला नसतो मी..." रॉयने चिडून उत्तर दिलं. पलीकडच्या त्या माणसाला कोण जाणे ते उत्तर फारच लागलं, दारूचा इफेक्ट असावा कदाचित. "पोरा, तुला म्हाईत नाही काय बी अजून. शिकला सावरलेला दिसतोयस, तुम्हा पोरांना ४ आकडे काय मोजता आले, त्या डबड्यापुढ बसून बटन काय दाबता आली, लय आक्कल आली असा वाटतं का काय ?" "कुणाच्या तोंडी लागतो आहे मी ... " रॉय पुटपुटला, तितक्यात तो माणूस रॉयच्या समोरच येऊन बसला. "माझं नाव संपत. असा बायल्यावानी काय बोलतु ? मर्द असशील तर मह्याबरोबर चल, तुला दावतो कुणाच्या त्वांडी लागतोयस ते ..." आता मात्र रॉय घाबरला. उसण अवसान आणीत म्हणाला "कुठ जायचं ?" " कुठ म्हंजे ? धंद्याचा टाईम हाये. दवाखान्यात चल. तुला दावतो कुट जात असतो म्या दारू ढोसून ते." का कोण जाणे, रॉयला संपत बरोबर जावस वाटलं आणि फारसा विचार न करता तो निघाला. कुठेतरी संपतच्या बोलण्यात सच्चाई वाटली त्याला. दारू पिऊन लोकं नेहमी खरच बोलतात हे खरोखर खरं असेल असं त्याला वाटलं. गुत्त्यापासून थोड्याश्या लांब अंतरावर असलेल्या सरकारी हॉस्पिटलमध्ये संपत रॉयला घेऊन जात होता. हॉस्पिटलच्या दारातच दोन बायका हंबरडा फोडून रडत होत्या, एकीचा नवरा आणि एकीचा तरणाबांड मुलगा अपघातात वारला होता. समोरच उभा असलेला पोलीस इन्स्पेक्टर संपतला पाहताच "नवीन केस हाये, सायबान रिपोर्ट लौकर मागितलाय. पटापट उरक ..." असं म्हणाला. नुसतंच मान हलवून "हो " असं म्हणत संपतने रॉयला बरोबर येण्याचा इशारा केला. पोलिसाला पाहून दारूच्या नशेत असताना सुद्धा रॉयच्या आतला सुसभ्य आणि सुसंकृत माणूस "पोलिसाच प्रकरण आहे म्हणजे जरा चार हात लांब राहिलेलंच बऱ.." असा व्यावहारिक विचार करत होता. हॉस्पिटलच्या एका निर्जन कोपऱ्यातल्या रूममध्ये एक डॉक्टर संपतची वाट पाहत होता. आत आल्या आल्याच डॉक्टरनी संपतकड एक कागद दिला, "सुरु कर" असं सांगितलं आणि त्यानंतर रॉयने जे काही पाहिलं त्याने त्याची नशा खाडकन उतरली...

संपतने पांढरा गाऊन घातला होता आणि शक्य तितक्या निर्विकारपणे तो त्या डेड बॉडीवर हातोडा चालवीत होता... "माय जॉब सक्स ..." असं म्हणण वेगळं आणि अनुभव घेण वेगळ हे रॉयला आता कळत होत. पोस्टमॉर्टम करणाऱ्या माणसांच्या बाबतीत त्याने आधी ऐकलं होतं पण ते पाहायला सुद्धा मिळेल असं वाटलं नव्हतं त्याला. काय न्याय असतो ना देवाच्या दरबारी सुद्धा ? जिवंत माणसाच्या शरीराची चिरफाड करणाऱ्या डॉक्टरला मान सन्मान, प्रेताची चिरफाड करणाऱ्याला अशी वागणूक... दुसऱ्या माणसाबद्दल, तेही थर्ड क्लास काम करणाऱ्या माणसाबद्दल इतका विचार करणं त्याच्या स्वभावात बसत नव्हतं. साधारण अर्ध्या तासाने संपत रूमच्या बाहेर आला. आता त्याचीसुद्धा धुंदी उतरली होती. रॉयच्या डोळ्यात खोलवर बघत म्हणाला "पोट आहे, करावं लागत. तुला वाटत असणार बेवड्याला दारूपायी पैशे लागत असतील, म्हनून काहीतरी काम करतुया... बरोबरे तुझबी. बैलगाडी जशी बिना वंगचालत न्हाई तसा मी बिना दारूचा चालत न्हाई. चल घरला चल, चा पाजतो..." एका झोपडीवजा घरात गेल्यावर संपतने मुलीला चहा करायला सांगितलं. "हिच्यापाई जगतूया बास... बाकी काई बी न्हाई. बापजाद्याची जिमीन व्हती, भौबंदकीत तीबी गेली. दारुड्याबरोबर कोन ऱ्हानार, बायको सोडून गेली. गावातले लोक शेन घालतात त्वांडात, बायकुला संभाळता नाई आलं म्हनून. आता हिला शिकवायची हाय, लगीन करून द्यायचा हाय. पैका लागतो सगळ्याला, म्हनून हे सगळं. गावात दुसर कुनी असलं काम न्हाई करत. पन म्या म्हनतो भीक तर नाई ना मागत, जवर आंगात रग हाय, तवर म्या हे करनार. काम सोप्पं न्हाई ते, येक दिसात न्हाई केलं, तर मुडद्याला हात न्हाई लावता येत दुसऱ्या दिशी. एका मुडद्यापाठी २० रुपडे, असा भाव हाये माझा. " हे सगळ ऐकत असताना रॉय स्वताची त्या माणसाबरोबर तुलना करत होता. पहिल्यांदा कदाचित दुसऱ्या कुणाची डेडलाईन महत्वाची वाटत होती. अवरली रेट म्हणजे दुसरं काही वेगळं नसतं असंच वाटलं त्याला. "तू शहरातला हायेस, क्यामप्युटर चालवत असशील..." रॉयची तंद्री मधेच तुटली.. "हो बरोबर आहे, मी कॉम्प्युटर इंजिनियर आहे. पुण्याला काम करतो. घरी आई, बाबा, आजी, आजोबा असतात. इकड आजोबांचं पेन्शनच काम होतं म्हणून आलो होतो." चहाचा शेवटचा घोट संपवत रॉय उठला. (वाटलं नाही हे सगळ शिकायला मिळेल म्हणून ... ) मनातल्या मनातच रॉय पुटपुटला. "पुण्याला आला कि फोन करा, भेटू परत ... " आपला फोन नंबर एका चिठ्ठीवर लिहून देत रॉय निघाला. पेन्शनच काम संपवून घरी जाताना त्याला पहिल्यांदा कर्जतविषयी आपुलकी वाटत होती. कम्प्युटरच्या १४ इंच स्क्रीनच्या बाहेरसुद्धा एक जग आहे, आणि त्यातही संघर्ष आहे हे त्याला कळून चुकलं होत...

त्याच्या घराजवळच्या उडुपी हॉटेलमधल्या त्या माथाडी कामगाराबरोबर, चकचकीत कपड्यात एक कटिंग आणि एक सिगारेट मारताना त्याला पाहण आता कॉमन झालं होत !

Tuesday, September 21, 2010

शिव्या ... शाप की वरदान ?

भाषासमृद्धी असा काहीतरी शब्द खूप लहानपणी, दहावीत असताना कुठेतरी वाचला होता. तेंव्हा कोण्या एका विद्वानाने भाषा कोणत्या गोष्टींमुळे व्यापक बनते यावर एक खूप मोठा प्रबंध लिहिला होता. जशी प्रत्येक रिसर्च पेपर वाचताना होते तशीच मळमळ मला तेंव्हा सुद्धा झाली होती, आश्चर्याची गोष्ट म्हणजे मला तो विद्वान काय म्हणत होता हे समजत होतं. आणि त्याच्याही पुढे म्हणजे मी बऱ्याच मुद्द्यांवर त्याचाशी असहमत ही होत होतो. पण त्या काळी माझ्यातला लेखक हा लेखक कमी आणि मार्कांसाठी हपापलेला विद्यार्थी जास्त असल्याने तेंव्हा मी फारसा विचार केला नव्हता, प्लस तसे रसग्रहण टाईप चे प्रश्न बोर्डाच्या परीक्षेत येत नाहीत असं "२१ - अपेक्षित" मध्ये लिहिलंही होतं, त्यामुळे त्याच्यासाठी वेळ देण्याचा काहीच संबंध नव्हता. आज वपुंच्या काही गोष्टी वाचत होतो आणि साईड बाय साईड विचारही चालू होता तेंव्हा मात्र मला रहावलं नाही आणि मग लिहायला घेतलं.

माझ्यामते कुठल्याही भाषेची खोली किंवा समृद्धी ही त्या भाषेत असलेल्या शब्दांनी मोजली पाहिजे. तुमच्या भावना तुम्हाला सहजतेने , अवघड शब्दांच्या कुबड्या न वापरता आणि अचूकपणे सांगता आल्या की ती भाषा समृद्ध, असा साधा रुल वापरला पाहिजे. शक्य तितके कमी व्याकरणाचे नियम, मामुली शुद्धलेखनाच्या अटी, आणि ऑटो स्पेल चेक / करेक्शन असलेली भाषा माझी सगळ्यात आवडती भाषा असेल. मराठी भाषा ही बऱ्यापैकी आवडत्या भाषेंच्या गटात येणारी ... कारण एकच - मराठीत असलेला असाधारण शिव्यांचा शब्दसंग्रह ! महाराष्ट्रातच बघा ना - खानदेश, विदर्भ, मराठवाडा, मध्य महाराष्ट्र, कोकण ... प्रत्येक ठिकाणांनी आपली स्वतंत्रता जपली आहे. प्रत्येकाच्या शिव्यांचे कर्ते आणि कर्म एकच, पण सर्वनाम आणि विशेषनामांचे उच्चार आणि ढंग वेगळा, क्रियापद वेगळी - आपली स्वताची एक झलक दाखवणारी. काहींमध्ये ग्रामीण चावटपणा आहे तर काहींमध्ये शहरी सुबकता. काहींमध्ये मराठवाडी ठसका आहे तर काहींमध्ये मालवणी मसाला, काही ठेवणीतले शालजोडे मारणार तर काही सरळ तोंडावर बेछूटपणे सत्त्याहत्तर कुळांचा उद्धार करणार. काही "च्यामायला इंग्रजीतल्या शिव्यात काई दम नाई भो" असं छाती पुढे करून ठसकावणार तर काही "एफ - वर्ड्स" वापरण्यात आनंद मानणार. शिव्या देणं हे चांगलं की वाईट हा वेगळा मुद्दा आहे पण शिव्या देण्याची ताकद देणं ही त्या भाषेची खूप मोठी खुबी आहे असं मी मानतो.

मला सांगा - शाळेत असताना तुमची कधी मारामारी झाली असेल तर कोणत्या शब्दांनी तुम्हाला भांडायचं बळ दिलंय ? बालचित्रवाणीमध्ये ऐकलेल्या शब्दांनी की फटका खाल्ल्यावर त्या क्षणी मनात आलेल्या शिव्यांनी ? आजही जेंव्हा भारतात पाकिस्तानकडून दहशतवादी हल्ले होतात तेंव्हा पहिला शब्द काय येतो मनात ? "निषेध" की दुसरा काही ? खरं सांगायचं झालं तर शिव्या माणसाला माणूस बनवतात - त्याच्या मधलं animal instinct जागं ठेवतात. निसर्गाने दिलेल्या देणगीतली भावना नावाची गोष्ट दुसऱ्यापर्यंत पोहोचवण्याच काम करतात. पण जगातल्या अनेक दुसऱ्या चांगल्या गोष्टींप्रमाणे त्यांच्याकडं आजही वाईट नजरेनेच पाहिलं जातं. आजही शिवीगाळ करणारा माणूस हा अशिक्षित, असभ्य आहे असं समाजात मानलं जातं. वास्तविकत : शिव्या देणारा माणूस त्याच्या मनातलं सगळं बोलून दाखवत असतो, याचाच दुसरा अर्थ तो मनात काहीच ठेवत नसतो, याचाच तिसरा अर्थ तो "पोटात एक आणि ओठात एक" टाईप लोकांमध्ये येत नाही असा होतो.

आपल्याला ज्या सिस्टीमने शिकवलं आहे, त्या सिस्टीमच्या झापड लावलेल्या नजरेच्या बाहेर सुद्धा एक वेगळी दुनिया आहे हे जरा बघा एकदा. वर्षानुवर्ष लोकांनी सांगितलेल्या आणि आंधळेपणाने स्वीकारलेल्या गोष्टी बरोबर की स्वताला पटतं ते बरोबर हे बघा विचारून स्वताला. बघा एकदा शांत डोक्याने आणि स्वच्छंदी मनाने विचार करून ...

Friday, July 03, 2009

Tandoori night

Yesterday - Thursday, July 02, 2009 will be remembered as The Miraculous Day in the history of 207 Main Street. With the grace of Almighty and under the veteran guidance of a room mate Sushrut, coupled with a supreme power of world wide web; I cooked the first dish of my life -Tandoori Chicken. For those who do not think it as an extraordinary achievement for me, I will have to share some glimpses of my past.

I came to Binghamton in August 2008 and since then till yesterday I haven't cooked a single dish. I know, this is not something to be proud of but my room mates are so caring that they did not allow me to cook for last two semesters. Or if you see from other angle, they did not want to take risk of "swallowing" the food that I cooked. You see, medicines and clinical checkups are very costly here. This doesn't mean I was not helping in kitchen - but I was more of a rookie , just another guy who can "cut" vegetables, onions and anything for that matter. But now, I could be the most important person in the kitchen - someone who understands howto's of cooking. With this feather of "cook" in my hat, a sense of independence passed my mind. I felt like a free man after getting my first job, but the feeling of seeing myself as a cook was much stronger. Now that I can stand tall on my own feet, I don't have to listen to the blabbering of Sooraj, Sachin, Anurag and Rohan. No longer I will be known as a man who eats boiled eggs all (any ?) time !

I got a kind help from my room mates in this venture and also this link was really helpful in setting up the oven's temperature and adding some extra seasoning that we might have missed. This was the first time I learned that cooking is not difficult, it is more of an art than a science or a mundane task. All you need is a help of some hands, a really good recipe, and most importantly - a good heart, a huge appetite, a stomach (if you understand what I mean) and taste of a food lover ...

Looking forward to cook more ....

Appreciations, Encouragements, Teasing, What's so great in it ? like comments ... Welcome !

Thursday, May 14, 2009

MS renamed MJ - Masters of Jugaad

Jugaad - an arrangement or a work around, which have to be used because of lack of resources and/or will power.

Some people here in my university have enlightened my mind with this word by their exemplary performance. A google search on Jugaad gives some positive meanings also, but here I do not intend to mean it positively. For me, it is an act of using people ( by some uncanny tricks ) for your own benefits and getting rewarded for something which you do not deserve. A person who is known for such acts is called as Jugaadu in colloquial Hindi language.

I have been observing few people are getting extremely good grades in many subjects despite of their very little participation in doing things on their own. These people make a network of similar souls and share code, assignments and everything that they could share. Needless to say, they themselves do not put in infinitesimally small amount of time / efforts in making it happen, instead they ask for help to some of their friends ( here literal meaning of friends should not be taken into consideration. Friend for them is someone who can directly share rather give his code without even worrying about the consequences - and their "friendship" could break into pieces the moment a motive is achieved). Few days back, I was extremely agitated by some incidents and wanted to write about it, but my finals were approaching so did not really get time for that. Now that I am free, I will be kicking some serious asses today.

Copying somebody's work and putting it under your name is a crime in itself but many people disagree to this point. Chalta hain, dekha jayega, sab karte hain like statements are nothing but a cowardly act of supporting your baseless points. Someone who puts in efforts and works out things must get credit for his / her work. And somebody who is copying his / her work must get punished, I know I am sounding really harsh on this point but you would think exactly same if you were in my position. The root of this problem goes right into the mentality of human. Many of us (including me) want things to be available easily and readily and do not want to take efforts in making something work. But I think, higher education has offered me a chance to disprove the above statement and I should try my level best to do so. Some people do not seem to mind this fact seriously, though. All of them want to have a very high GPA and a very high paying job, but they want it without taking any pains. A jugaadu in general will find another talented / hard working guy and will do anything to please him / her , cause he / she is the one who is obviously doing all work and our friend is least bothered about it. I am not against making good teams but think everyone should have an active participation in their work if all of them want same grades. Some people are even more worse, they themselves don't know what is going on in their project and somehow end up getting close to 'A', and preach others how easy the subject was and how stupid others are. Such flavor of jugaadu gives me nothing but aggravation.

I would be more than happy if the problem ends here. But alas, as they say one rotten apple spoils the barrel, a jugaadu advocates and attracts someone with similar characteristics. When such people find a higher position in any hierarchy, they start expanding their vicious circle until the system becomes a big, intermingled web of mess. Many deserving candidates get nothing but rejection when such people make their decisions, and that is a serious problem. After that overwhelming incident few days back, I felt some people do not deserve a master's degree - forget about a job in United States.

But one can't help this - there are always some elements in every system who are corrupted and the system is functioning properly only because of some honest people. Fortunately God has given us that much ability to decide where we want to see ourselves.

Whatever - one thing is true - MS is no more Master of Science for me, it's Master of Jugaad !

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Words of wisdom

Many times one does not find wisdom in books, the pure and heavenly presence of wisdom can only be felt when you get to the state of enlightenment. Wisdom should not necessarily come from highly educated person, often some experiences of common man and quotes teach you so many things which you would never understand by reading books. To add to this argument, one does not have to use words with deep, mystic meaning. In fact, the simpler is the word, better is the effect. I always had a dream of being a truck driver since childhood, don't ask the reason but somehow I felt he understands world better than rest of us. Maybe because he has seen and explored world much more than you and me, he has a higher insight of complexities of human life.

My dream of being a truck driver shattered into pieces when I found engineers and doctors with their beautiful wives; realities of life and steep inclination towards materialistic things once again conquered the pure, pristine ambition of a child. It was going very routinely until yesterday the thought popped in my mind and I started it putting here. I would say that truck driver's contribution towards the human development is always neglected and considered inferior. I know the society is always biased towards intellects who are highly educated than the real wizards, but heck ! I will not second society on this, I have some examples which will prove that truck drivers also have equal depth of knowledge as that of the celebrated philosophers. I will be explaining meanings behind the one liners that you often find at the back of a truck, many of you mock it but I call it words of wisdom , so here it goes ( For those who do not have indic fonts installed mostly on Linux Box can install it from here ) -

चुन्नू मुन्नू दे पप्पा दी गड्डी |
- Don't laugh. It shows the earnest love of a father who is away from his family for many days because of the nature of his job. He is reviving memories of those unforgettable moments he spent with his offspring. I don't understand how come people remember those sad dialogues of A.K. Hangal in Sholay or Naseeruddin Shah's classic performance in Masoom and at the same time laugh at our driver's emotions.

दोस्ती पक्की, खर्चा अपना अपना |
- This is business buddy ! I have never seen any other better statement than this which clearly and succinctly expresses the boundaries between a friend and a parasite. If you know one, send it to me through a comment on this post.

खेतो पे किसान, सीमा पर जवान |
- I don't think there is any dispute over this line, as told in our 4th standard's social science's book , we all know Indian economy is highly dependent on it's agricultural development. And it is the truth that we have a sound sleep every night only because our jawans are trying really hard to protect our borders from intruders.

जगह मिलने पर साइड दी जायेगी |
- Many of us do not understand the simple meaning behind this line. It shows the clarity of thought and a level of maturity to understand need and urgency of others. How else a truck driver could convey his thoughts to someone who is behind him? They do not have high tech wireless radio systems to exchange words in case of urgency.

चलती है गाडी, उड़ती है धुल |
जलते हैं दुश्मन, खिलते हैं फूल ||
- Apparently, these two statements look unrelated, but as I said earlier, you need to keep your biased mind away in order to understand the hidden wisdom behind these lines. Our driver is saying that when someone makes progress, there are people who are always jealous of his / her achievements. But irrespective of their envious nature one has to keep travelling the path of glory. What a way to put things in such a simple words !

अमीरों की ज़िन्दगी बिस्कूट और केक पर |
ड्राईवर की ज़िन्दगी क्लच और ब्रेक पर ||
- I can see your laughing faces. But believe me, you need to have a heart and soul of a truck driver to understand the meanings of these lines. I am often amazed by seeing the driving skills of truck drivers and hence totally support this statement wholeheartedly.

नदी किनारे मैना बैठी, दाना खाए छल्ली दा |
तू तो राजा बन गया ड्राईवर, दिल ना लागे अकेली दा ||
- I don't know about you guys, but tears rolled on my cheeks when I first read these lines. Can you imagine the situation of driver's wife when he has to go for a long trip? Tell me, we see number of movies in which army men return to their posts on a very short notice, but why don't we apply same rule to truck drivers? Why is the approach so partial ?

पापा ना पियो शराब |
खरीद दो मुझे एक किताब ||
- Well, this is more of a self awareness kind of initiative. Yes, truck drivers are also human beings and they also need some education. And they don't want it to be told in a complicated manner. I appreciate the honesty behind these lines.

१८ के फूल, ८४ की माला |
बुरी नज़र वाले तेरा मुह काला ||
- I am a strong believer of believes, some of you guys derogatorily call it as superstitions. Since this is very close to truck driver's religious beliefs, let's not comment on it.

क्या साथ लाया है, क्या साथ ले जायेगा |
खाली हाथ आया था, खाली हाथ जायेगा ||
- See some similarity? Raksesh Roshan should be sued for stealing these lines. I think, now you people's perspective towards drivers should change significantly. If you trace the roots of these lines, you will find it in Bhagwad - Geeta.

मालिक की गाड़ी, ड्राईवर का पसीना |
चलती है रोड पर बनके हसीना ||
- This is my personal favorite. Truck driver's profession is still in demand because of these lines. See the self esteem and self respect ? Such lines make me still follow the good old dream of mine. It portrays a responsible, hard working and carefree bird like attitude of a driver which gives him the strength to walk the less traveled road. Hats off to your attitude guys !

Finally, I want to conclude - truck drivers are not like the one which we see in Hindi movies, they are normal humans like us with emotions. They also have problems and dreams like all of us. I honestly expect after reading this post, you guys will start respecting truck drivers in a same sense as you do with doctors, engineers and so called professionals.

Comments, suggestions, more words of wisdom are most welcome !

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Sanjay Dutt's crap

We all know that there is a big unending chain of incapable and uncreative political leaders in India. Sanjay Dutt added himself in that league yesterday by giving his debut speech. As always, he looked unprepared for his highly celebrated 'gandhigiri' stunt, at first I thought he was on medication or "high". As expected, in his small real life appearance ( which by the way is more difficult and real than the usual cinematic appearances ) Sanjay showed his lack of understanding about issues in India. And I believe this is not his fault. How can you expect someone who has spent his life in living a lavish style understand the problems of a common man ? Wearing Samajwadi Party's ( which is going to be the next most highly desired place for actors / actresses who have pending cases against them) laal topi, Sanjay addressed a big crowd that he came here not to give speeches but to work. Instead of telling how his political ambitions are helpful to the public of India, he wasted the time by giving crap about what his father has done for the country. I understand that when you do not have any points to put on table, you seek help from "mere pitaji" like fillers, but he should know that not everyone is as dumb as those who attended the rally in Lucknow.

There has always been discussions if a party should allow a candidate of criminal background to campaign for elections but these discussions always ended with no decision. I believe, majority of people in Indian Democracy are still blind, if they are not, then they would not have gathered in such a large number. Movie / Cricket stars in India are praised to such a high level that people start thinking them as real life heroes, capable of doing anything anytime - single handedly. If we see the history of politics, southern India has given many film star come politicians who are found to be negligibly concerned about politics. Many of them actually are not even serious in attending parliamentary discussions. No wonders, why Govinda, Jaya Bachhan, Dharmendra get notices for their very low attendance in houses. Besides I seriously doubt their intellectual understanding about the issues that are discussed in meetings. You do not need to be a Ph.D. to be a member of parliament, but at least you should have experienced something in your life which will make you considerate about people's problems. Someone who has no idea of what is going on, is next to a useless creature in such discussion.

I did not see how news channels spread this news, but certainly some of them must have showed how Sanjay Dutt is close to Mahatma Gandhi ( come on, there has to be something in Sanjay's life which bears exact similarity to what happened with Gandhi, you don't know - he might have fought for prisoner's rights when he was arrested ) or how he has transformed into an actual person ( which to some sharp minds counter intuitively suggest what he WAS NOT earlier ) after his TADA case and all. Some of them might have showed Sanjay's photos feeding a beggar on streets, or donating for an orphanage. Some channels might be broadcasting this as a breaking news - Sanjay Dutt ki Gandhigiri, parde ka mahatma ab aam jindagi me . I will not be astonished to see this news some day - Sanjay Dutt elected as a MoP defeating ( someone like Ram Naik ) by 40,000 votes in loksabha elections. I would also not be surprised if Mohammad Azharuddin gets elected with similar majority. I better not comment on what will happen - some wise mind has already said it before - which aptly applies to mentality of Indian public -

विनाशकाले विपरित बुद्धी ...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Valentine's Day - What else ?

Alright, this fits quite well on a new year's eve but let me take this opportunity and say - Every valentine comes up with a new "hope". Sharp readers will certainly point out the pun intended here. I don't know about couples but I am trying to represent singles or so called lukhha community here on my blog. I took some time off to read around 2-3 newspapers today - they are almost completely filled with stories of how couples met 40-50 years ago and are still together, how did they celebrate their first valentine and all. Nobody, literally nobody wrote anything about single people. I think this is not fair and hence thought of writing something in support of singles.

Many people including those with whom I am quite acquainted and those whom I hardly know asked me a same question today - "What did you do on valentine's ?" I am damn sure many of those know the answer but they wanted to hear it from me. So here it goes -" Well, I did my assignment today - wrote a small recursive descent parser." Of course - when you are doing master's in my university and you are single then this is pretty much of what you can do ! Anyways, university and the-pain-of-being-there is a different story all together. Coming to the point of hope, every couple should try and find out their single friends and try to set them up somehow. Not to mention, they should do this while keeping in mind the mutual compatibility between both parties. That way, they can attain the real grace of cupid. Instead of cornering singles or almost denying their existence by NOT writing or mentioning anything about them on this day, they could do a real charity work. Nothing is more angelic or saintly than connecting two minds :-D

I am not saying that "It sucks to be single". There are certain advantages of being single which are already mentioned in my last year's post. But I could not see the mournful faces of some of my friends and can't stand up to the intensity of feelings that they are burying inside them. As a good friend, I owe them this post. I often hear it from people and many times see it in movies that everyone should fall in love at least once. But unfortunately, people forget that there are some living entities present on this mother Earth who are extremely eligible to be a couple one day. But they can't make it because they don't find the perfect match, this is not the lack of ability but the dearth of chance. When some gifted souls pass on the light to these (currently unfortunate ) guys, that day my friends , will be the REAL VALENTINE'S DAY for all of us.

Amen ...

Sunday, January 04, 2009

Things about situation comedy

With a few notable exceptions, I never used to follow serials before. But recently I found out some things about these serials which make them popular. There is something in these serials which make you follow them. This is probably the reason why I check Project-Free-TV to see if somebody posted How I Met Your Mother‘s links or not. It all started when I saw Friends for the first time. That was the most amazing sitcom I ever saw, and when I compared it with the serials which I used to hate, I found a great difference. These are some of the points that make situation comedies (sitcoms) famous –

The hangout place – In HIMYM, there is this bar called MacLaren's where the group meets almost every day and discusses their routines which often take a hideous turn. In Friends, it used to be Central Perk, the place where these guys had fun.

Characters with unique and bizarre characteristics – This is the essence of sitcoms. Each character has some weird traits, often to make things little more interesting. Friends has a great combo of such characters which made them a real success, HIMYM is not that great as Friends, but not bad either.

Sarcasm – I am a great fan of sarcastic people and believe that sarcasm should be considered as one of the most important things that human needs in order to survive. Chandler Bing is my favorite character in Friends and Barney Stinson in HIMYM. If given a chance, I would definitely like to meet those script writers who compose their dialogues. This job is really tough and needs a high level of creativity. So to make a sitcom famous, there has to be a sarcastic person who himself need not be a great character, but someone who knows how to hit the bull’s eye.

Differences – When I saw some episodes of Scrubs, I didn’t like them much, maybe because all of these characters belong to same hospital and there is nothing new in their lives. I mean there are some good moments but I never felt like laughing my heart out anytime, which was often the case with Friends. If the serial has few characters that go to totally different work places, then there are higher chances of getting variety of experiences, which adds a lot of masala in the plot.

Bindings and Breakups are important – The show must go on. Nobody feels too bad when someone breaks up, nobody feels too good either when someone gets into relationship. In fact, more the ups and downs in a character’s life more are the chances to create funny situations. In a comedy serial, you don’t expect a relationship graph as a straight line with slope 1. This might not be true about the serials I used to like before 6 years, but now I know that ups and downs are part of life, I take them very lightly and appreciate the comic sense behind it.

Making sure that addendums are taken out from time to time – Addendums here mean the characters which are important for an episode or two. You don’t really care what the hell happened to them when they are done with those episodes. This is difficult to achieve each time, some people might like the addendum and they may feel like he / she should be a part of group, but no. If you compare this point with usual soap serials, for them following this point is next to impossible. Their life can’t just go without complications, there has to be an infinitely long chain of family relations, with at least one extra marital affair between every possible pair. Indian soap operas might rule their world for the height of pathetic creations and series of nonsense incidents. There are some serials where the main character just do not die, it’s like he / she is immortal, time never ages them, even if it, the character is so strong by will that it can survive for almost ten generations. Anyways, I can write a separate post on my take on soap operas, don’t want to eat up space here.

Showing the facts – I like this point very much. Sitcoms are very good at showing what they want to show. There is no ideology which they follow, no guidelines as such. They do not give out any social / non-social message which are similar to self help books. There is absolutely no problem when rest of characters make fun of the lead character and he / she does not always win. The main idea is the lead actor is so common that he / she could be one of us, one of the common people. The belief that he /she is amongst the aam janata creates a very positive impression on audience and hence these serials win.

Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Thoughts @ new year eve

This new year has a really dull start. I was alone for last 5 days in my room since my room mates went to visit their relatives / friends. I was not hoping to have such a spoiled start after arriving in US, you know, generally US seems to be a fun place but after coming here, there were very few fun moments. I am not complaining about the life here but honestly, I was hoping to see a lot fun here, but India seems to be far better place. Last year I remember spending 31st with lots of friends in a boisterous way but this time it was dead cold. We used to have so much fun, ate at almost every place on JM road, checked out girls and then had a very long walk on quite roads at night ! I seem to miss everything here. It's freezing cold ( -12 degrees ) and I am enjoying the new year eve with rice and flower chi bhaji ! I could have gone to my friends, but doing that would have ended in the same way, I bet.

To add to this boredom, I was having cough and cold for last 4-5 days and slept for like 18 hours per day ( really wanted to do this after exams but certainly not this way ). Laptop and internet connection is the sole savior here, thanks to those streaming sites without which life could be hell. I am sleeping at about 3-4 AM and waking up at around 3 PM. Funny thing is in around 2 hours the sun starts setting off and it feels like night again. A cold weather, a heated room and a warm bed - it's so tempting to sleep. Some of my friends suggested to go to downtown and have some fun, but the problem is I don't drink or smoke so there is nothing much left for me to do in pubs. Plus, I am so good at dance that people might stop dancing after seeing few of my ganapati dance steps :-D Since I don't want to spoil their holidays, I don't go to pubs ( what a reasoning !). After doing a lot of thinking ( unfortunately, this is THE THING you do when you have nothing else to do ) I came to the conclusion that this is happening because of the place where I am living. Binghamton is really dull, maybe an ideal place for retired people who want to spend their last days in absolute serenity. I am too much used to crowded places and people and this quietness is killing me. If I were in a city like NYC, life could be much better. Sometimes I wonder how could these people celebrate their only festival in such way. There are so few people, maybe families coming and seeing each others once in a year or so. Younger ones go to pubs and discs and oldies go to churches, I believe this is what I've observed.

I am seeing this as part and parcel of my decision - being here in US. Maybe there is something in my plate worth waiting for. When you experience these days, you really know the value of people, relatives, friends. You don't feel their importance when they are with you, but only when you are alone like me. Each new year has taught me lots of things, this year comes with its own teachings and I won't forget it in rest of my life.

Enough of boring stuff , wish you all a rocking new year !!!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

India - the land of eunuchs

For those who don't know the meaning of eunuch, let me clear - it means following
  • A castrated man employed as a harem attendant or as a functionary in certain Asian courts.
  • A man or boy whose testes are nonfunctioning or have been removed.
  • An ineffectual, powerless, or unmasculine man.

I, being an Indian fit in that definition. Because there is nothing that I can do to save my country from those bastards who did the heinous act in Mumbai. I am feeling like a hijada or chakka since I don't have any control on thing happening in Mumbai. I can see news and feel extremely agitated by looking at dead bodies, I can curse politicians and the corrupted system once again, I can blame a certain group or religion for it at the same time I can point out the flaws of India's homeland security system, I can badmouth the so called “intelligence” agencies in India, I can suggest prime minister of India to launch a fierce war against Pakistan, I can tell him to surge in the military forces in Pak Occupied Kashmir, I can dream of driving a fighter aircraft bombing all over the terrorist hotspots. I can think of starting POTA once again. But in reality, nothing will happen. You know why, because we all are eunuchs. We can only see them coming with weapons in hands, starting carnage all over the place. This is fact, and they have proved it one more time!

Today news channels are filled up with "live coverage" of how terrorist could kick our asses and tomorrow they will cover special condolence / condemnation programs. Nothing will change; Mumbai will start its routine once again like nothing has happened. People will blame others, go home, sleep and start another day. Some pundits will argue that "this is life! Shit happens and it happens every other day!” Several people like me will waste yet another important page on internet by writing this useless post and nothing else. The government being the most powerful entity on Earth will promise that they will find out the brains behind it and start up a new team to investigate the matter (which might find out the real culprits). Bollywood will produce one more masala movie showing how powerful a just another stupid common man could be. Those who have lost their family members were the ones, who will remember this day for rest of their lives.

Great job India! The world salutes you for your cowardliness and inability to act on any terrorist attack! It salutes you for being consistent and successful target of terrorism ... There is no other country in this world which is as eunuch as you....

Keep it up! Let people die and let the evil win.....Hats off....

Saturday, September 27, 2008

Celebration !

Birthdays are always special occasions. And they become even more special when you celebrate them outside your home country. You meet some people just before arriving to a new place and get mixed up so easily that you never feel like staying with some strangers. That's the magic of friendship , I must say. My room mates celebrated my 25th birthday with such an enthusiasm that I almost forgot I am doing it away from home. Last time it was like a very quite kind of thing, with some of my best friends and yesterday it was with my new mates here in US.

Early in the morning ( FYI it was 10 in the morning, but that's still too early for me ! if you don't think it's true, ask each of my room mate how do we get ourselves going for algorithm's classes ) I got a call from Aai , so my day started with the best wishes of the loveliest person in my life. You know, we generally don't appreciate these phones and internet , maybe because they are overused and commonplace things now, but when someone calls you from thousands of miles, I still get a great feeling while talking to them. So after a long gtalk conversion of 1 hour ( I must write a testimonial for Google now ) and followed by a call from Aaba, I lazily started getting ready for routine.

After some greeting calls , at night we had a small get together with friends around and had fun ! Here is how I looked,

pardon me for the close up smile, but can't help, - with tooth wide open is my style ( people suggested to take bath and wear new clothes but didn't agree since I don't want to loose the original and non formal touch ... aah ! you are right, that was just a sincere attempt to hide my old lazy habits ) and I know, I am having a really bad haircut, but if you see - 12 $ is much worth considering than the time frame for which you look really messy ( due to the hair cut ), the catch here is people think of you as a person who is so busy in his assignments and projects that he doesn't care to take a look at mirror . I really look terrific without my glasses, you know when I saw this picture, I felt proud of my decision of wearing the glasses all the time, otherwise people here get frightened easily and could call 911 anytime they see me around :-D

comments , suggestions on new hair cut, on new resolutions ...
anyone ?

Wednesday, September 03, 2008

A budding coffee maker ...

Until I got the on campus job, there was nothing that I could do except studying. And looking at my past record of being such a great student (:-D) , it was very difficult to pass time. Also, I was thinking of those who spend their precious time in reading my blog, you see - I am consistently searching for something presentable. Fortunately I got a job in on campus coffee shops called Gourmet Beans and Jazzman's Cafe. From the beginning I was open for all kind of on campus jobs including serving in dining halls to monitoring / assisting in public computer laboratory. And as it is I am not having money to spend (after working for two years, you should not ask your parents for money - is my thinking), the job was like a golden opportunity for me, and fortunately I grabbed it, and you people got a new topic to read!

So as it went, I was given a form which I was supposed to fill and then wait for the SSN to arrive, SSN here carries a lot of importance just like the ration card / driving license / PUC (in case you are nabbed by a mama ) in India. I was on the payroll after around 3 days of my application. On my first day, I met a guy called Steve - my manager to discuss my schedule. Steve happens to be a strict professional but an approachable person also. The first day at cafe house was kind of hectic for a new recruit like me. But people here are very generous and kind, my colleague Dorothy (DoT ! her pen name - the exclamation mark is a part of her name, FYI) and few other helped me a lot. There are these 10-15 different types of drinks and remembering how to prepare each is not a easy task for a beginner. I now know the life of a drink maker and cashier, when you work for a software company you feel like you are the only one who is highly stressed, but after seeing people working in dining halls and coffee shops, believe me - It's nothing different! In fact, a software developer's job should be considered less hectic than this, I must say. My roommates are working in few dining halls and I could see how exhausted they look when they come back home after work.

Anyways, forget the stress. Being a drink maker is a good thing for me, I can now make almost all coffee drinks that you people can see in CCD's and Barista's. Every good thing comes with its own counterpart, you can't see pretty chicks while making drinks - that's really bad :( I am trying to achieve both objectives though - I am thinking of devising a new work plan (remember Ford's assembly line principle?), where everyone gets ample time to check out the crowd :-). Cashier's job here is really easy, even a kid who has one working finger and some basic ability to count things and remember the names of beverages can survive. The counting machines are really sophisticated; with touch screen monitors, you just have to select drinks and charge by cards or cash.

Most important thing and a per month account for that sake -
Deductions -
House Rent - $275 + Grocery - $80 since I eat a lot + some more expenses which are rare in my case.
Earnings -
7 $ per hour - 16 hours per week - 64 hours per month = $448
Looks like I am saving some amount Uncle Sam …

Update - Recently I learned that there is going to be a tax deduction :-( which will be reimbursed in the next year.

Sunday, August 24, 2008

Into the wild




Man, after a long time there is something worth seeing. This movie was on my hit list since many days but did not get a chance to see it. It's rated at #137 on imdb, but its worth a top ranker. Anyways, who the hell cares about rankings? It's about a graduate student who turns down his normal life and becomes a voyager and then a super tramp ( Alexander Supertramp rather !) I was lucky to see it with subtitles which created a permanent reflection on my memory. I will never ever forget those great dialogues. If you like nature and if you feel great serenity by being close to it, this is THE movie for you. It's not just about the nature and about an urge to cross almost every human limitations to meet the eternal joy, but it has got a standing of its own.

I generally like out of the way movies, the ones with different story line and plot. And this one came with a complete package - eye catching cinematography, ultimate screenplay and lovely music; philosophy + drama + biography, what else can you expect from a movie. More than everything else, I really liked the message that the audience get ( or at least what I got). I initially used to think that one needs to live a highly materialistic life in order to get away from it, sounds somewhat similar to Osho's principle, whatever. And I somehow always used to think that materialistic people are happier than their counterparts. But when I saw this real life story, it changed my look towards the world. You know what, there is always a deep and mystic relation between human and nature, but we ruin it by our so called mannerism and principles of society. We look at everything, literally everything with a predisposed mind that we could not see something beyond certain limit, we judge people by the look they wear, by the language they speak, by so many things that we sometimes forget that human is also nature's creation and it has some instincts of its own, just like the free bird who lives its life in a way the nature has told it to do, in pure organic form. There are no boundaries, no false limits, no 'so called' fear !

Into the wild is a great movie and I really loved it. Some people might find it boring or a little bit slow, but that's how things happened in Christopher McCandless's life and I really respect him for whatever he has done. In fact, somewhere in my mind there is a rebellion who wants to go to the remote place without having any connection with the world. I don't like to replicate things but think this is a place where I should post some really good dialogues, see if you can find some philosophy behind it.

There is pleasure in pathless woods ,
There is rapture on the lonely shore,
There is a society where none intrudes,
By the deep sea and the music in its roar ;
I love not man the less, but Nature more.

- Lord Byron

Rather than love, than money, than fairness, give me truth

- Thoreu

I will miss you too, Ron. But you are wrong if you think the joy of life comes principally from human relationships. God's placed it all around us. It's in everything. In anything that we can experience. People just have to change the way they think about those things. You ought to put a little camper on the back of your pick-up and go take a look at some of the great work god’s done out here in the American west.

TWO YEARS HE WALKS THE EARTH. NO PHONE, NO POOL, NO PETS, NO CIGARETTES, ULTIMATE FREEDOM. AN EXTREMIST. AND AESTHETIC VOYAGER WHOSE HOME IS... the road. Escaped from Atlanta. Thou shalt not return ‘cause the “west is the best.” And now after two rambling years, comes the final and greatest adventure. The climactic battle to kill the false being within and victoriously conclude the spiritual revolution. Ten days and nights of freight trains and hitchhiking, bringing him to the great white north. No longer to be poisoned by civilization, he flees, and walks alone upon the land
to become lost in the wild.

HAPPINESS ONLY REAL WHEN SHARED.

CALL EVERYTHING BY ITS RIGHT NAME.

What if you saw me running into your arms... Would you see then... ...what I see now?

- CHRISTOPHER JOHNSON MCCANDLESS.

Saturday, August 09, 2008

First post from America

Finally I reached US safely. Wednesday, 6th AUG - 2008 is going to be one of the most memorable days in my life. I came before two days in Mumbai and stayed at my uncle's place. Every day in last week I could see mixed emotions on my mother's face, little bit happy but more worried face. Her son is going to study abroad and doesn't know when he will be back. He doesn't have a cell phone to reach and doesn't have much money to spend. His son called her once when he reached airport but couldn't speak for more than a minute in four quarters of a dollar. The Internet is well developed these days but she doesn't know how to contact him through it. With the help of my brother she tried a lot but alas ! the place where I belong has got a load shedding of 9 hours and also the timings does not always match. When I talked to her on gtalk, she could listen to my voice but I did not. So, my brother typed in her words and I replied via my voice chat, so nice way to talk to your dear ones ! I could have bought a calling card or cell phone but looking at its prize I didn't feel doing so. Poor me !

Something about the first air travel -
I did not have a jet lag even though the flight was late by four hours. On the airport my cousin gave me lots of instructions of where things are and where should I start from, what should I do and what I shouldn't at custom checks. I was a bit numb while leaving my family but kept my face smiling ( didn't want to increase the intensity of my absence ). Didn't even cry since when I am here in US. The flight was good ( didn't have any benchmark to compare since this was my first air travel so felt quite okay. ) I did not like the vegetarian food served in flight and the entertainment facilities. Watched Kung Fu Panda for some time but somehow it stopped in between and did not come up again. After trying whatever I could, got fade up and slept for about 8 - 10 hours. I was feeling bit cold so wrapped up the blanket all over and had a nice sleep, in the mean time my friends kept on looking for me all the way but could not see my face :-D. After completion of formalities and custom checks at Newark Airport we stayed for an hour or so and got into the bus which was arranged by our seniors.

About seniors -
Three cheers to you guys ! You are so helpful and understanding that you almost made us feel this country as a home away from home. I really appreciate your help since the first day when we new students contacted you. Thanks for taking your time out of your busy schedules and helping us in every single thing which could have been a disaster without your help. I am looking forward for continuing this tradition ahead when I will be at your position after one year.

Some updates -
I am done with getting my student ID card, which means I could travel all over the city using the buses for free of cost, I could use internet facilities and of course ring up people in America from free phones available in the university. I really like the idea of free phones, I must say ;-) I am quite settled now and got a rented 5 BHK apartment with my room mates, costs 275$ ( including heat, water and electricity) per head, each of us have a separate bedroom and a common hall, kitchen. Two of my room mates are first time away from home and adjusting the turns of five people in one toilet + bathroom + basin room is going to be a real challenge and fun :-D

Looking forward for learning lots of new things which in turn means making lots of mistakes !

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

Clearing the last hurdle

Yesterday was a big day for me. After going through a painful process of applying to universities, waiting for their admits / rejects, gathering hell lot of document to prove that you are financially strong to survive in States; I was at the last resort yesterday - The Visa Interview. I remember someone saying, appearing for GRE and TOEFL is just the beginning, I whole heartedly agree to that statement now. This process has taught me lots of things of how system works and what it takes to leave your country and go to some unknown place for pursuing your educational interests. Right from getting the study material, preparing and appearing for exams, sending application packets, shortlisting universities, selecting between admits and not crying over rejects; I have got a lot of support from people around me and that's why I feel very much fortunate today. I messed up a lot in between the process, sometime I made terrible mistakes but somehow by hook or crook it got carried away; though I have to pay the prize of my laziness and nonchalance. For someone this post might seem like exaggeration of my feelings but it isn't, if you were at my place, you must have felt the same way. If you are unknown of the minute details and intricacies that needs to be cleared or thought of while / before appearing for a visa interview, go see someone who has gone through it.

I made some mistakes while filling up an online form and that delayed processing of my i20. This was essentially the reason for taking the visa date in July, ideally people get it done in 1st or 2nd week of June or beforehand. But what generally / easily happens with people never happens with me. This is a general observation and I have many experiences to support this argument. This D-Day interview was yet another story to tell. Before going to the consulate, everyone prepares the answers of standard questions and by the wish of almighty, they are asked same questions. As I said it earlier, it didn't happen with me. I was standing last in a queue of 7-8 candidates and everyone in front of me came out with a granted visa in a very short time, none of them had to show any documents. As it happens always, I was standing last and was thinking that they ( visa officers ) can't just let people go merrily without being asked tough questions. Being the last man, I knew that I will have to go through a tricky interview. As I entered in the visa interview compartment, I was welcomed by a middle aged (around 55 years) , fat white woman. She was wearing spectacles and has got a typical style of looking through the passage between eyebrows and the glass. I did not care about her looks as I was known to such styles since my school days, many of our khadoos teachers used to stare like that. But contradictory to what I perceived , she was totally different. She was very well mannered and pleasant, she did ask me lot of questions which don't fall in the list of FAQ's but never ever I felt myself uncomfortable while answering them. In fact, I was very confident, looking directly into her eyes, fearless. She even cracked a joke in my interview, which I did understand and I responded by smiling back, but somehow she knew that I was not in the mood of appreciating jokes at that time. 'I was just joking, please don't take it seriously' was her response to my reaction. Sometime back I used to think of what must be going on in the visa officer's mind ( I am even planning to do some research in this area !) , so that I can use it for my interview. Everyday they take hundreds of visa interviews, ask lot of similar questions and get similar answers always. It's not at all bad if someone enjoys pulling the legs of the candidate at the time of interview. When she joked and I replied back by smiling to it, a thought just passed through my mind - 'Maam' how about exchanging our positions? How about me asking you questions and cracking jokes? How about me deciding your fate of being there or not being there in United States... ' I am quite sure, if I would have been sitting at her place, I could have done lots of mischievous things.

So, after a rapid fire interview ( it lasted for around 300+ seconds including my answers, which were often precise except at few places. Later when I calculated the time, the rate of asking questions came out to be 1 question per 2 seconds) , it was a time to hear the golden words, words that I read lot many times in other people's visa interview experiences. ' Alright Onkar, I am granting your visa. You will be flying with your i20 and will get your passport back in 3 working days through courier. Wish you all the best in your master's studies, have a nice time'. I felt great after hearing it, and thanked her for her kindness. After many days, I did something which was very satisfactory.